Prelude to Farewell

I want to go to a deserted beach with you and hold your hand. Watch the sun rise and set, write our names on the sand. I want to see a movie with you and play the part where the boy and the girl kiss for the first time and butterflies flew. I want to write you a letter and tell you how awesome you make me feel.

I miss you when we’re together. I see you everyday and I miss you. You’re with me but my heart continues to long for us. I miss you and I miss us.

I remember when you used to go after me when I’m pretending to leave. You never let go. We never let go. Slowly, now, you’re slipping farther and farther away. I can feel you numbing. I can feel us dying.

I want to dream a dream that would take me back two years ago when you and I were an envied team. You promised to hold me forever. We promised to stay.

I want to go to a deserted beach and shout your name. But it will remind me of how much we shout at each other.

I want to see a movie and play the part where one of us will start talking. But it will remind me of how we make conversations suddenly difficult.

I want to write you a letter and tell you how much I am hurting. But it will remind me of how we use words to deliberately hurt each other.

You never failed to surprise me. Take us back to the way we were.